Sadly, this sums up the existence of FEAR in my life. Its roots run deep down into my soul, attached to all of the things I hold so dear to my heart. My children and all those I love, my future, my dogs, my health, my home, my life itself. This summer it has tried to choke out my joy and it has often succeeded in entangling me and blocking me from peace.
And I'm so angry about it today. Angry that my head knows that fear is the opposite of faith. Angry that I know in my head that worry stops with faith. Angry that I know that I cannot control people, places, or things.
My HEART....my bleeding heart. Why can't my heart absorb all of this head knowledge? Why don't I TRUST that my heavenly Father will take care of ALL things, if I just let Him?
The fertilizer for my weeds of fear is my past. And it's true...my past was loaded with fertile ground for worry, fear, and anxiety. But the past is not today, nor need it be my future.
But God. But God, who is mighty to save us all can reach down deep inside of me, put His hands around the scars on my heart and pull the weeds out by the roots. He alone can do this thing. The weeds prevail if the roots of my fears are not healed by Almighty God.
So I surrender to the master gardener who is well able to change me, one day at a time. I'm willing Papa. Thank you for your patience with me on my journey to peace...no matter what the circumstances may be around me. I love you.
Mary Beth
Amen, Amen! I know my weeds...too. I don't want them to sneak in and grow their roots down deep.. No thanks! The Weedkiller should be....LOVE!!!! It is amazing that the Father still loves me and takes care of my yard.. someday... it will turn into a beautiful garden with all kids of fruits and flowers! You and I will enjoy looking at them together!! Glory to God! Yay!
ReplyDeleteThis piece reminds me of David's Psalms when he would pour out his sin and fear to God and always come to the place that God is able, more than able to free from sin, protect from fear and to place your feet back on His solid ground!
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